2018 I'm READY!!!

I am so ready for 2018!!!! 2017 I am over you! But before I move on I must say...WHAT A YEAR!
Yeah use many exclamation points.

 These ladies made my year bearable. Thank you for ready made friends in my siblings. I used to want brothers. Now I would not change my sisters for the world!

 Here we are at our nieces baby dedication. This is another blessing. Baby Z is a god send! She is awesome!

And this guy. What a gift. Here he is teasing me about something.  I love being married to this man!

Why do I look like this? TEACHER LIFE! I am not a fully certified educator. GOD IS GOOD!

Now its time to go. 2018 I'm coming for you!

A Friend In Me.

The oxford dictionary defines Friendship as ‘The emotions or conduct of friends; the state of being friends, or the relationship between friends.’

 Being the nerd that I am, I had to check the scientific meaning of friendship.  I guess I have always been on this quest for true friendships.  As a child I moved around very frequently. By the time I was 12 I had already moved from two islands, three different states, then to  the great WHITE NORTH. I had lived in several homes, been to numerous schools and a bunch of churches. Being an introvert didn’t not help the friendship making department that much either. People took my quietness for being stand- off –ish ‘stooch’ or aloof. I would talk more and force myself to ‘lighten up’ so it would be easier to be in contact with others.

My friend relationships grew and changed as I grew and changed. I have a few cherished ones that seem timeless. One I believe is a personal gift because no matter how far apart or how long it’s been since…we still connect on a deep level.

I really did crave deep and meaningful friendships, and when I thought I found them, well I tried to keep them. I was the one to always make the phone call, offer my home for any get together, and even got my drivers license early so the gang could hang out.

The funny thing about friendships is that they change, just like people do. Sometimes the change is positive and other times, not so much. I have learned that a friendship, just like love is a choice. I have to choose everyday to put ‘work’ into these friendships. It has also come to my attention that the way I view a friendship, may not be the same way another person does. Their perspective can be totally different from mine.

I have also learned that sometimes, one must walk away. They are some friends that became toxic and I could no longer be around them. There have been misunderstandings, fights, makeup’s and break ups. I had to choose to live a life that was stress free…some might even say selfish…in a good way lol.

As I have gotten older, my friend circle has gotten smaller. That is something my teenage self would have feared but today, I understand that it is part of growth and change. Some friendships were distractions to goals and because I wouldn’t let go, they did. There are days when I miss being with certain individuals, but I know for a fact I can sleep well at night knowing I have done my best.  

I have also met the coolest person on this planet and beyond. He has been my ultimate friend from before the foundations of the world and though they are times when I do not give Him enough time, He has always chosen to love me. The friendship saga continues but I am loving the journey.

So, make a new friend today!

 - CZL-K

The Letter

Today I cried. I cried a whole lot. It was one of those gut retching cries. My mom sent me a letter. One that made my heart ache and then strangely enough begin to heal. I know I am being vague but thats the way I will spin it for now.



I must say, I love the woman who birthed me. She is phenomenal.  She was really tough on me as a child. I now understand the stressors of being and immigrant in a strange land and the numerous decisions that she had to make to keep us safe. She has done her best and I hope in mine and my sisters journey through adulthood, we have been able to call her blessed. I hope that If I ever get the chance to be a mother one day that I am half as good as she is.

Take some time out this week to just give your mom and mother figures alike a huge hug.

-Daughter Colette

You can call me MRS.!!!

If I were to make a living at this blogging stuff... I would stave! yeah I'm back. for how long, I wont make any promises.

So so so much has happened. I'll start with the big stuff.

I GOT MARRIED!!!! MARRIED!!!!

Waiting with great anticipation.

Looking to the future.

 Pascal and I tied the knot on August 2nd, 2015 on a farm in Peterborough Ontario. It was worth the two hour drive out of the city. The country air did a lot of good for the many urban dwellers. Yes they were cow , sheep and horse viewings on the way.

My Blessing coming in on a horse!

The first picture of us running into our new lives!

The outdoor ceremony was perfect. My dress was amazing. Pascal looked great in his suit and ... then it rained. RAINED and RAINED and kept on raining.

Actually we were very thankful because a tornado touched down very close to the farm. No one was hurt and all the guest got home safely.

One thing about the rain though...It really was a blessing. Showers of blessings as our MC poetically said.

We took pictures, we danced,  We sang a duet, we ate and we danced again. We actually danced till after midnight. Then we drove to the hotel in the storm. Must beautiful lightning show I have ever seen in my life. Just the right mixture of fear and excitement but we survived. 

We now enter the unknown but without fear because Our Heavenly Father leads us!

Last look of my 'Wedding Face' before I took off all the the makeup.

I thank God for all of his blessings. Thanking Him for granting me this gift!

As Promised...The Promise

        I tend to ramble so this is a challenge to make this post short and to the point! 

Let's tell the story with PICTURES!!! lol

I met Pascal in 2011 at a concert we both were playing at. He was playing the piano for a group of children and was really really good! After the concert we were introduced. He sung a song to me that I had written in 2004 for a music composition. 

A friend and I dropped him off after the concert and a few days later I got a phone call from him. He had forgotten his shoes in the car :) 

Later on he asked me to work on a music project with him. I put down some Steel Pan tracks down for his Album and like they say...THE REST IS HISTORY!!!

Our first Official Sabbath calling one another fiancee.

October 2012

Our first date. Went to a Dave Brown Concert.

                                                 

April 2014

Our first trip state side. Springfield Maryland.

                                 

November 7th, 2014

                                                      He declared that I was his Eve and then.... HE PUT A RING ON IT!
         

November 7th 2014

THE BEST DAY OF MY LIFE!

Clinking the glass!

YES YES Ladies and gentlemen! He put the ring on it! I am so happy. My best friend on the planet asked me to be his wife and I said yes.  Pascal and I have a friendship that I know God smiles on! I love him and he loves me.

Details and more pictures to come!

A Simple Reminder

It has been such a long time since I have even graced this page with my presence! Let's just say the year has been playing very roughly with me. A crazy long roller- coster! If I were to spend the time to tell you what has been going on,

1.) We will be here for the rest of the year

2.) You simply would not believe me

All I can say is WOW!

Today I decided to stay home from church and just be in the word. I decided to go online and was listening to the Sabbath school study on the Sanctuary. The night before I had an interesting discussion with my boyfriend on the same topic. It was intriguing to see how different and how similar or discussion were to people who were studying the same thing all over the world. 

I did not know that a breakthrough was about to occur! You see as I mentioned before, It has been a challenging year! from writers block, to family issues, to weddings, deaths, terminal illnesses, births and yes trying to complete my masters.. Never a dull moment. I have been wrestling with life, my past and what my future is to look like. Today it hit me It was right there in His word. 

God Said to me "Mz CzL My daughter....

JOEL 2: 25- 27

“I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten—
    the great locust and the young locust,
    the other locusts and the locust swarm[b]—
my great army that I sent among you.
26 You will have plenty to eat, until you are full,
    and you will praise the name of the Lord your God,
    who has worked wonders for you;
never again will my people be shamed.
27 Then you will know that I am in Israel,
    that I am the Lord your God,
    and that there is no other;
never again will my people be shamed.

I never have to worry! no matter how challenging it seems, I am here with you and will restore to you the years that have been taken away!.

Well, I'm in tears. I forget sometimes that He has everything worked out. I am happy to have had this time to re focus and to be reminded that God has it all under control. 

I had to share it with ya!

Be blessed!

~Mz CzL